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I slide first cigarette out of the new pack I just bought, light it, get pissed cause I said I would quit after I threw away the empty pack last night. I slide out the back door with my dog following close. The moon's full or close to it. I take a few puffs and inhale, hold it in, exhale. The smoke entices my eyes up to that moon and then disappears. I can see the clouds encasing the glow; it's always cool to see clouds at night. Black free-form shapes on a heather gray backdrop, a hint of navy depending on the night.  I get that feeling again like I'm doing the same thing I always do. I've fallen victim to a massive case of indifference that

My day of reckoning has come to it's end, my head and my pillow Finally friends again. My mind is renderin thoughts from a world Beyond. So tentative when my sleep is responsive to my wishes And dreams and lucrative they may seem, they're lucid and teemed With a Lucifer theme. Reamed through the ringer round a scorpion's Stinger, stingin and  bringin me thrillings and demons. Chilled and Screamin like a creamsicle straight from the freezer. You know I'm just Teasin, now back to my dreamin. See it leads without reason to the To the freezing, that bitter cold season. Less than warm wind replacing My breathin, what was that season?

I asked him to give me something to rap about, he told me the past/childhood. Do you like it? This is what I wished for? To be all grown up an not a kid no more? Forget that the door, I shoulda closed it long before I got this old and Forget what made me whole and the truth be told put it in my hands, this Past to behold. I wasn't always this cold, but it seems like my warmth's Started to unfold. The story goes as the picture shows, compared to now, That glitter was gold. Back to the days, back to the old ways, playin out under the gold suns rays No rumors to say, and the only tricks being played were when you made Your parents t

Always did it alone, raised myself since I could rise on my own Two legs and walk to success, fuck the rest, I'm becoming the best Of the class without even takin the test of life, been there and back bout Twice. Not the biggest dog, but I got the most bite, take that and double it To measure the fight. Unleash me, watch me grow into the beast. Wolfin down That trash you barkin at me. And upchuck it, hush puppy, or get put to sleep. Underdoggin it don't phase me a lick, the superhero in me is startin to rip Outta my ribs, crackin the lips of the criticism I get. All that jawin at me, Ain't attackin even the back of my head. My minds

Bleeding passion onto the pages holdin these bars Open up my heart, no scalpel no scars. Need some Healin so I turn to the pen, chest getting tighter I can't breathe again. I'm on the bottom of the heap, Heavin prayers from the mouth of a heathen. Needin a reason to hold my head up, feels like my neck is sleepin. My back is creakin, ready to break in a second, the bad thoughts creep In, my mind is infected. So I cry out and question what's got me so restless No answer from the stars, another rejection. Shit gets real hard when I start Reflectin, it's like my brain takes a trip to the valley of the shadow of death and Then it, p